Thursday, August 20, 2009

Day Two, Dawn

LOL, I just thought I'd give the title today some drama! I just woke up and wanted to post about my experience yesterday and some other stuff, too!

Yesterday I really did get through the entire day without counting calories and eating what I wanted. I went out to dinner with a friend and didn't even finish my meal. My sandwich was so-so and although the sweet potato fries are got were good, I was getting full, plus we were heading for a to die for chocolate place for dessert after, and I wanted to save room. I'd say that's unusual for me to do, to save room. Normally I'm either in diet mode where I'm very "careful" and don't eat too much so won't even go for dessert, or I'm in "FEED ME!" mode, where I'd tell myself to eat the whole sandwich, all the friends AND dessert, because what the hell!

Dessert was delicious and I didn't finish it, either. Huh. We'll see if I can keep this up! As I've mentioned, I've managed to get to this place before. I feel a good balance and I think what happens to me is similar to what happens to someone who is on, say, medication for depression or other mental disorder. (BTW - I am NOT making light of someone with that sort of disorder; my second cousin is schizophrenic, I have an uncle with mental issues, and various other relatives on anti-depressants, PLUS I've been to therapy a number of times and make my living helping people deal with their stuff!) So, I always try not to diet. Then I do well for a while and I feel so good, and often times even lose a few pounds, that I think, "I don't have to practice intuitive eating anymore, I can just cut down on my calories, lose the weight I want to, then I'll get back to eating mindfully." That always backfires, though, which is why I'm here today, writing this blog about not dieting for a year.

I want to be held accountable, and I have to say I'm so thankful for the comments I've received from all of you guys so far! A couple of you mentioned books you've read or recommended books, so I thought I'd give you a history of what I've read and how it helped.

Intuitive Eating - I've read this book. Twice. I read it the first time about three years ago and a second time within the last year. Everything in it is wonderful and makes complete sense. You know how you read something, get it, and think you'll just integrate it into your life and never stop doing it? I think that's what I keep thinking, but then I get off track again.

Breaking Free from Emotional Eating - Geneen Roth, the author of this book, is the very first person to introduce me to the concept of eating whatever the heck I wanted as long as I only ate when I was hungry and stopped when I was full. When I first read the book a few years ago I thought she was insane and that there was no way I could ever do that. However, I've learned since then that I am capable of doing that, I just need to keep practicing.

When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies - I actually haven't read this since the first summer I bought it three years ago, I probably should read it again. I strongly believe that I would never, ever go on a diet if I loved my body the way it is. If you lived on a dessert island and never, ever saw "perfect" women on TV or in magazines, don't you think you'd feel better about your body, too? I do want to love my body. I should get this back off the shelf!

The Four Day Win - This book is an excellent guide to the way our brains affect our attempts at dieting. I've read it twice within the last year, and whenever I'm actually doing the exercises from the book I feel great. It starts off by concentrating on taking care of our minds before it ever delves into ways in which to move more and eat less. Good stuff.

If I'm So Smart Why Can't I Lose Weight?
- Another book about feeling your feelings instead of eating through them. Short and to the point.

Runaway Eating - Dealing with very mild disordered eating.

I've read SO many books. I know what I have to do, I just have to do it now. Thanks for listening and all your help!


  1. Wow, I'm proud of you! It's great when you can listen to your body and not look at the "numbers".

  2. i found your blog via a comment you left at the Healthy Tipping Point blog. i can't agree with you more, growing up i never thought about what i eat, etc but after having children, it seems i can't stop thinking about it. i have a HUGE sweet tooth and until recently I did not eat one single fruit or's something I am working on and it's getting better. Did you see the recently article in Time Magazine about exercise and eating? I have it on blog a few posts from the top. It's an interesting article.

    i can relate so much to the words you type. i have the IE book, I haven't really read it yet. I did read the book Crave: Why You Binge Eat and How to Stop by Cynthia Bulik
    -i felt connected to the stuff that she wrote but she never lead you to a place to help you.

    can i ask if you weigh yourself on a daily basis?

  3. I'm with you. I'm making some of the same changed in my life. Look forward to reading about your journey.

  4. Tami, I go back and forth on the weighing myself thing. When I'm dieting, I do. When I'm not dieting, I weigh myself once in a while. I have mixed feelings on the scale. It's just a number and I feel I am connected enough to my body to know if I'm gaining or losing weight. However, I've read that weighing yourself and trying to understand your emotions surrounding your weight can be helpful. As in, if I weigh more than I want to, what does that trigger for me? How can I look at it differently?

    Tasty Health & Johanna B, thanks so much for reading!

  5. So glad I found you! I'm trying out the same journey into listening to my body and dropping the "dieting" mentality. It's a bit scary, but it sure seems far... =)

  6. Lots of great books. I think they all offer wonderful suggestions - it just takes time and practice to really make it happen. It seems simple enough to just eat when hungry, for example, but it can be a challenge. I think we just need to keep working at it. Practice makes perfect, right? ;-)